Can’t sleep
Crazy run tonight, super sore and full of energy. Have tons of bullshit on my mind. Why do we allow ourselves to get to this point everytime? You don’t fuck they’re douchebags, you do fuck… They’re douchebags. Do we ever get a fucking break? I wish Anita were here she’s the only person I know with clear unbiased thoughts and who I trust and listen to when it comes to the human psyche. Mentally I’m not where I was last year looking and wishing to meet that special someone, but fuck my life when I meet someone and i’m remotely interested it ends up being the same guy but with a different dick. Dont fucking tell me he’ll show up when you least expect it, those are fucking lies you tell to ugly, fat and ignorant people. I’m happy being single and free, don’t get me wrong… but I can’t help but wonder… Is there something wrong with my judgement of character? I mean is it somewhat linked to my insane father? Do I always seek crazy destructive relationships because that’s all I ever knew watching my mom and dad at each others throats all my life? Wtf?
Rant is over. Going to bed. My bday is Friday and once again no romantic act from prince charming is in the works nor have I accomplished any of the stuff I thought I’d have done by the time I turned 25, ok that’s a lie but at least a couple of the big important ones are still in the horizon too far to reach. Have faith, not in god (that bitch is fake), but in the universe. Good things happen to good people, have faith.
To the next 25 years! Cheers. :)
So full of energy
I ran 7 miles at te gym tonight. Turns out I’ve lost 17 lbs so far, I’m feeling pretty good about myself lately. And I’m ok being single and CELIBATE. Sex complicates everything not to mention it fucks with your self esteem. I’m so happy right now I could bounce on clouds. You were right when you dumped me I did “dodge a bullet”. Btw I can tell you’re doing drugs what a turnoff you’re what the French would call: le loser. Not to mention your little entourage of circus freaks is disgusting.
